Entry Category: Uncategorized
Published On: 10-28-2007 11:04 AM

you are not sure what you want
long down the road
just sure of what you want now
which will leave me in the cold

i said fine and go but just know this
no promise of me waiting at the door,
no fighting for you
i cannot take this anymore

why no fight you ask
as if that is what you need
i am too hurt, too tired
no heart left to bleed

you took that heart
that gave so much
squeezed and crushed
until i don’t want your touch

see, i am tired of tears
that just roll down my face
weary of the pain
that took love’s place

like Icarus, go fly
with those wings i gave you
it is my last gift
of a love once so true

but be careful, know the story
the sun is so hot
don’t let your gift of freedom
be one i gave you for naught

you see, when you fall
toward the turbulent sea
i cannot catch you this time
i have to save me

Entry Category: Uncategorized
Published On: 08-13-2007 06:43 AM

i awake in the night, my heart beating fast
are you out there?
is it you at last?

a strangeness I feel, a light sweat on my brow
was that you?
i need you now.

i pace the floors from room to room
do you need me?
it had just started to bloom.

i lay back down, but sleep won’t come
do you miss me?
i am becoming numb

i fear sleep now, i don’t want to miss
the light rapping on my door
the knock that holds my kiss

i think of you, my heart is tight
i sit here waiting
until it is light

i heard about the look on your face
when my name was mentioned
you lost your grace

still there is nothing, no one
you have not come
i will not believe we are done

tonight i will try to sleep again
for it is you i need
to keep me from my pain

8/12/07

Entry Category: Uncategorized
Published On: 08-01-2007 05:17 AM

i have one picture of you and it is burned into my mind
i wish for a thousand more but none i can find.

that sexy boyish smile, that sparkle in your eyes
is what i remember while choking back my cries

i lay in the dark, as do you
so far apart what do we do?

i close my eyes and i can feel your touch
those strong hands on me that i love so much

i long to talk, to hear your voice
but we cannot, and not by choice

i broke my own rules, the ones laid out for you
you broke them too, now what do we do?

i will wait, it is all i can do
i know you will wait, but not for who

from me to him 8/1/07

Entry Category: Uncategorized
Published On: 07-31-2007 10:02 AM

you entered my life and changed it so
and although i should,
i don’t want to let you go

i have built my walls and so have you
mine are cracked now
but i can build them anew

if you need your space, i can make that be
but i don’t want that,
if it is up to me

there is sadness in me that i don’t understand
all I know is
i want the touch of your hand

i dream of you in the night and see your eyes full of pain
it stays inside with me all day
until i sleep again

i try to work, i try to play
but thoughts of you
fill my head all day

i do not know how long you will be gone
just know in your mind
my heart holds your song

and if you want me, if you need me
i will be waiting
i would never flee

just say the word and i will be fine
and i will be waiting for you
waiting to …….. “make time”

from me to him 7/31/07