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Published On: 01-30-2007 21:32 PM
Published On: 01-30-2007 21:32 PM
I'll tell you....My intuition KICKS @$$!!!! I knew something was going to happen and sure enough it did. Sorry my journal buddies, you get to hear me vent....
#1...NEVER show up at my house with out calling first....You MIGHT just get your feelings hurt.
#2 Don't "break up" with me and tell me you just want to be friends and we're moving too fast and that you "really like me a lot" and still want to hang out. Sorry, some girls may fall for that crap, but this one has been around a time or two and I know what that translates to: I'm going to string you on and make you wait for me. NO, I DON'T THINK SO!
#3 Don't ask me if I'm going to be upset when you leave. Don't flatter yourself like that. There's not a single guy out there that's worth the salt in my tears. My Daddy always told me that the more you cry the less you pee. Well, I'd rather have a permanent ring on my butt from the toilet than sit and cry over some boy. They're not worth it and the ones that are won't make you cry. Yes, you're a nice guy, but it seems more like you're a waste of one. Or maybe I'm just a waste of a good girl? Oh well....
#4 Your definition of "moving too fast" is a little off.... You're sadly mistaken.
I'll NEVER put all my eggs in one basket EVER again. I think I'll keep my options open for a while. EVERY guy will be on the back burner from now on. Atleast I know it's nothing I did. I am THAT confident. No guy will ever take my confidence away from me. I am a female and we're a lot stronger than ya'll give us credit for.
#1...NEVER show up at my house with out calling first....You MIGHT just get your feelings hurt.
#2 Don't "break up" with me and tell me you just want to be friends and we're moving too fast and that you "really like me a lot" and still want to hang out. Sorry, some girls may fall for that crap, but this one has been around a time or two and I know what that translates to: I'm going to string you on and make you wait for me. NO, I DON'T THINK SO!
#3 Don't ask me if I'm going to be upset when you leave. Don't flatter yourself like that. There's not a single guy out there that's worth the salt in my tears. My Daddy always told me that the more you cry the less you pee. Well, I'd rather have a permanent ring on my butt from the toilet than sit and cry over some boy. They're not worth it and the ones that are won't make you cry. Yes, you're a nice guy, but it seems more like you're a waste of one. Or maybe I'm just a waste of a good girl? Oh well....
#4 Your definition of "moving too fast" is a little off.... You're sadly mistaken.
I'll NEVER put all my eggs in one basket EVER again. I think I'll keep my options open for a while. EVERY guy will be on the back burner from now on. Atleast I know it's nothing I did. I am THAT confident. No guy will ever take my confidence away from me. I am a female and we're a lot stronger than ya'll give us credit for.
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Published On: 01-29-2007 00:09 AM
"Comfortable"
I just remembered, that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rode down, aisle 5
you looked behind you to smile back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us if we could leave.
Can't remember, what went wrong last September
Though I'm sure that you'd remind me, if you had to
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
I sleep with this new girl i'm still getting used to
my friends all approve, say she's gonna be good for you
they throw me, high fives
She says the bible is all that she reads
and prefers that I not use profanity
your mouth was, so dirty
Life of the party
and she swears that she's artsy
but you could distinguish
Miles from Coltrane
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
or so they say, say
She thinks I can't see the smile that she's fakin'
and poses for pictures that aren't being taken
I loved you
grey sweat pants, no makeup, so perfect
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
I'm not impressed, I want you back.
Published On: 01-29-2007 00:09 AM
"Comfortable"
I just remembered, that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rode down, aisle 5
you looked behind you to smile back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us if we could leave.
Can't remember, what went wrong last September
Though I'm sure that you'd remind me, if you had to
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
I sleep with this new girl i'm still getting used to
my friends all approve, say she's gonna be good for you
they throw me, high fives
She says the bible is all that she reads
and prefers that I not use profanity
your mouth was, so dirty
Life of the party
and she swears that she's artsy
but you could distinguish
Miles from Coltrane
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
or so they say, say
She thinks I can't see the smile that she's fakin'
and poses for pictures that aren't being taken
I loved you
grey sweat pants, no makeup, so perfect
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
I'm not impressed, I want you back.
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Published On: 01-29-2007 00:05 AM
Published On: 01-29-2007 00:05 AM
Going on 3 weeks now. It's about that time....You know that time when everything is going almost perfect and something unfortunate happens? Yea, that time. Hhhhhh.....Holding my breath. Hopefully that's all I'll have to do.
Life in Sandy-land hasnt been too interesting lately. I'm still loving my job. My friends are great. My family is healthy. Dogs are behaving somewhat. I guess I can't complain about anything.
I have a new uncle and cousins! I'm oober excited to the MAX to meet them all. Especially "Prince Charming". When I see him, I think I'll greet him with a nice "ribbit".
I'm not having a good feeling about his weekend...I hope it's just one of my many, many insecurities. Why is it so hard for me to trust guys? They're too hard to judge. I just don't believe them when they tell me that they really like me alot. I feel bad for the one that really does because he's going to have to try hard constantly to remind me that I am special to him and that he's with me for a reason.
Ok...I'm done.
Life in Sandy-land hasnt been too interesting lately. I'm still loving my job. My friends are great. My family is healthy. Dogs are behaving somewhat. I guess I can't complain about anything.
I have a new uncle and cousins! I'm oober excited to the MAX to meet them all. Especially "Prince Charming". When I see him, I think I'll greet him with a nice "ribbit".
I'm not having a good feeling about his weekend...I hope it's just one of my many, many insecurities. Why is it so hard for me to trust guys? They're too hard to judge. I just don't believe them when they tell me that they really like me alot. I feel bad for the one that really does because he's going to have to try hard constantly to remind me that I am special to him and that he's with me for a reason.
Ok...I'm done.
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Published On: 01-22-2007 10:07 AM
I cannot complain. I am finally happilly content with my life right now. I am happy with myself and love my job. I have a new guy in my life who is probably the nicest and most considerate guy I've ever been interested in. Did God finally answer my prayers? I asked for him to prove to me that all guys are not all the same inconsiderate [i]you know what'sand only want one thing. He's so nice! He's all I talk about. He even wanted me to meet his parents...!! I cannot tell you how nervous and scared to death I was. I kept wanting to back out and crawl back inside my cave and turn away from him but at the same time I was excited. his Mom is a sweet lady and his step-dad is crazy like me! I laughed probably the whole time I was there. And to top off his marvelousness (I know what you're thinking....No, it's probably NOT a word) he's absolutely the FIRST guy I've ever been out with that's not tried to take advantage of me the first time we hang out. Still we have not. 2 weeks later. What a gentleman, right?! I keep telling myself not to get too googly over him because it's all too good right now and I just KNOW something bad will happen. I'm just waiting...It always does. Whether it's something I did or something he did that makes me cringe whenever I think about him. I really like this "taking things slow" deal. Who's in a hurry? Why be in a hurry? I have my whole life... I heard the absolute prettiest song riding home that night. I'm pretty sure it was written for the fabulous brown eyed girl... Here are the lyrics....
"Diamonds On The Inside"
I knew a girl
Her name was truth
She was a horrible liar.
She couldnt spend one day alone
But she couldnt be satisfied.
When you have everything,
You have everything to lose.
She made herself
A bed of nails
And shes plannin' on puttin' it to use.
Cos she had diamonds on the inside
She had diamonds on the inside
She had diamonds on the inside
Diamonds
A candle throws its light into the darkness
In a nasty world,so shines the good deed
Make sure the fortune, that you seek
Is the fortune you need.
So tell me why,the first to ask,is the last to give,everytime
What you say and do not mean
Follow too close behind
Cos she had diamonds on the inside
She had diamonds on the inside
She wore diamonds on the inside
Diamonds
Like a soldier standing long under fire
Any change comes as a relief.
Let the giver's name remain unspoken
For she is just a generous thief.
But she had diamonds on the inside
Cos she had diamonds on the inside
She wore diamonds on the inside
She wore diamonds
Oh diamonds
She had diamonds
She wore diamonds
Diamonds
You cannot tell me those aren't some pretty lyrics...
A month, no smoking. Ok, I have to be honest...I may smoke one or two a week. I consider myself 'quit'. I went from about a pack and a half a day to a few a week...I don't remember the addiction to cigarettes. It's a weird feeling. I remember smoking all those cigarettes, but I dont remember being addicted to it. Its a wonderful feeling! I smell good again! My pretty fingernail aren't stained yellow and when I wake up in the mornings my chest doesnt feel like it's full of rocks grinding against sandpaper. I can smell my shampoo all day long. I just feel like I respect myself more now that I quit. I always said I'd quit when I got pregnant, but I'm glad I quit slowly and at my own pace and not forced to never pick up another one again at one time.
Again, life is good. I hope it stays at this comfortable pace for a while....I'll keep my fingers crossed...
Published On: 01-22-2007 10:07 AM
I cannot complain. I am finally happilly content with my life right now. I am happy with myself and love my job. I have a new guy in my life who is probably the nicest and most considerate guy I've ever been interested in. Did God finally answer my prayers? I asked for him to prove to me that all guys are not all the same inconsiderate [i]you know what'sand only want one thing. He's so nice! He's all I talk about. He even wanted me to meet his parents...!! I cannot tell you how nervous and scared to death I was. I kept wanting to back out and crawl back inside my cave and turn away from him but at the same time I was excited. his Mom is a sweet lady and his step-dad is crazy like me! I laughed probably the whole time I was there. And to top off his marvelousness (I know what you're thinking....No, it's probably NOT a word) he's absolutely the FIRST guy I've ever been out with that's not tried to take advantage of me the first time we hang out. Still we have not. 2 weeks later. What a gentleman, right?! I keep telling myself not to get too googly over him because it's all too good right now and I just KNOW something bad will happen. I'm just waiting...It always does. Whether it's something I did or something he did that makes me cringe whenever I think about him. I really like this "taking things slow" deal. Who's in a hurry? Why be in a hurry? I have my whole life... I heard the absolute prettiest song riding home that night. I'm pretty sure it was written for the fabulous brown eyed girl... Here are the lyrics....
"Diamonds On The Inside"
I knew a girl
Her name was truth
She was a horrible liar.
She couldnt spend one day alone
But she couldnt be satisfied.
When you have everything,
You have everything to lose.
She made herself
A bed of nails
And shes plannin' on puttin' it to use.
Cos she had diamonds on the inside
She had diamonds on the inside
She had diamonds on the inside
Diamonds
A candle throws its light into the darkness
In a nasty world,so shines the good deed
Make sure the fortune, that you seek
Is the fortune you need.
So tell me why,the first to ask,is the last to give,everytime
What you say and do not mean
Follow too close behind
Cos she had diamonds on the inside
She had diamonds on the inside
She wore diamonds on the inside
Diamonds
Like a soldier standing long under fire
Any change comes as a relief.
Let the giver's name remain unspoken
For she is just a generous thief.
But she had diamonds on the inside
Cos she had diamonds on the inside
She wore diamonds on the inside
She wore diamonds
Oh diamonds
She had diamonds
She wore diamonds
Diamonds
You cannot tell me those aren't some pretty lyrics...
A month, no smoking. Ok, I have to be honest...I may smoke one or two a week. I consider myself 'quit'. I went from about a pack and a half a day to a few a week...I don't remember the addiction to cigarettes. It's a weird feeling. I remember smoking all those cigarettes, but I dont remember being addicted to it. Its a wonderful feeling! I smell good again! My pretty fingernail aren't stained yellow and when I wake up in the mornings my chest doesnt feel like it's full of rocks grinding against sandpaper. I can smell my shampoo all day long. I just feel like I respect myself more now that I quit. I always said I'd quit when I got pregnant, but I'm glad I quit slowly and at my own pace and not forced to never pick up another one again at one time.
Again, life is good. I hope it stays at this comfortable pace for a while....I'll keep my fingers crossed...
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Published On: 12-18-2006 11:54 AM
Published On: 12-18-2006 11:54 AM
You know the feeling when just when you think you know someone and put all your trust in them and they just go and prove you different? Do you know that hurt? It pretty much sucks.
Quitting smoking is the hardest thing I've ever done. As sooon as I kick the habit, which I have almost done, (I'm down to about 2 a day) I swear I will never pick up another one again. It's even harder than leaving Chase. The only thing I got out of that relationship is missing out on the biggest mistake of my life by not marrying him. How many people can truly say that? It's always good to look on the bright side of things. There's always one. Sometimes it's just harder to find than others. It's there though.
Is there an honest person out there? People don't understand that I want the truth even if it hurts. I think I atleast deserve the truth and not a sugar coated lie. I just don't understand why people think they have to lie and not just go ahead and fess up to mistakes especially when the other person knows your lying. It makes you look like the bigger fool for putting up with their lies and deceit when you don't just go ahead and send them on their merry, cheating ways. Geez, WILL I EVER LEARN??
Quitting smoking is the hardest thing I've ever done. As sooon as I kick the habit, which I have almost done, (I'm down to about 2 a day) I swear I will never pick up another one again. It's even harder than leaving Chase. The only thing I got out of that relationship is missing out on the biggest mistake of my life by not marrying him. How many people can truly say that? It's always good to look on the bright side of things. There's always one. Sometimes it's just harder to find than others. It's there though.
Is there an honest person out there? People don't understand that I want the truth even if it hurts. I think I atleast deserve the truth and not a sugar coated lie. I just don't understand why people think they have to lie and not just go ahead and fess up to mistakes especially when the other person knows your lying. It makes you look like the bigger fool for putting up with their lies and deceit when you don't just go ahead and send them on their merry, cheating ways. Geez, WILL I EVER LEARN??
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